To the boy I least deserve and most love,

Choosing to let you go was a decision I find myself gratefully regretting. Things were tough, I didn’t know how to care for you amidst my financial mess. The responsibility of caring for you, providing you shelter, food, space… was more than I could handle. I should have tried harder, been less selfish, less afraid, less lazy, less tired. I wanted with all my heart to give you the world. I wanted to give you the love, freedom, nurture, and care you most deserve. You are one of a kind; the sweetest boy I have ever known. No one, and nothing which lives on this planet, or another could replace you. I cannot bear the thought of losing you forever. You are mine, please know the way this eats at me. It is my only hope that you could forgive me and know my love for you is eternal. You deserve to be loved, taken care of, happy, free. Even if it’s not with me. There is no deeper, more gut wrenching feeling than knowing I have failed you, hurt you, let you feel abandoned.

Please know that that someday I will find my way back to you. I only hope that then it won’t be too late.

I love you, boo bear. Please do not miss me, for I am with you always.

Regretfully yours,
Daisy
11.12.25